Full of sap

This summer (so far) has gone so much better for me so far. Last summer, when I got home from college, I grew very depressed and anxious as my world seemed to be spinning out of control. I was paranoid, scared of losing my Mom, and terrified when thinking about my future. I don’t know what it is about coming home for the summer but it always throws me for a loop. I started seeing my therapist again, and that helped alot. I suppose I’m just really bad with transitions. It was even worse when I got back to school after the summer. I cried for a week straight, and it was my junior year…

Anyway, this summer, I’ve been more than fine. I may not have a job, and I may be super lazy these days, but at least my head is on straight. I’m not worrying so much, and more often than not I am happy. Sure, I still have days where all I want to do is cry, curl up in a ball and sleep for the rest of my life, but it never lasts. My mom even says she has noticed a change.

I don’t know how I’ll do when I go back to school, but for now, I’m on top of the world HEY! (Imagine Dragons reference). I’m not sure what/who to thank for this positive change, but I can attest to one thing. This summer, I have a boyfriend of ten months. He’s never left my side. Perhaps he was all I needed to make me whole? I know that’s corny, and ew gross, right? But I don’t know what else it could be. He gives me hope. My love for him distracts me from my depression and my anxiety. He makes me feel secure. No words could describe who he has been, and who he is to me, but honestly, I don’t think I could have gotten through like I have without him. Thanks, Ty (:


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